Accepting what I did not want to accept

We often come across situations in life where we get hurt by other people or a situation. We are often told to think whether the person is really important enough in our life to mean that much to us. And, while consoling the person who got hurt, basically it is told to them to just move on and forget the other person.

 I have a different theory. We already know most of the time the issues are which can hurt our feelings. And what happens is that whenever we get amazed by a person or a situation or simply we get used to a situation which has that trait which can make you feel bad, we start to procrastinate to accept that fact. We try to make ourselves overlook those till the point which is just unbearable to us. But the fact of the matter is that people usually do not change drastically to fit into other criteria because they have their own life. In a situation when you yourself are trying to deny the potential of someone/something to make you feel bad, that/they will also deny it till it does by any of its inherent quality which is so natural to it.

 We always try to explain events in the light of our understandings. And when we cannot do it, we stop thinking about it unless you practice to do otherwise consciously. That is the reason behind not accepting certain things believing things will fall into places (to our liking). Our mind always try to analyse a situation with the resources available to it and if you restrain an information by not accepting it, there is a possibility that our mind will not be able to break down the situation which is the outcome of that very information to a level in which your consciousness can understand.

 I have seen that if you accept that certain person act in certain way, certain group of people will always think in a certain way, it is all really very easy to explain everything in you own mind. Reality is after all, how you perceive it. There is a point however to note that by accepting people does not mean to assign a value to it and belittle them, rather respecting their individuality as an independent human being as well as in a certain group. By accepting and respecting a person you give that person a room to be what he or she really is and you give yourself a room to live freely.

My experiences with pseudo-intellectualism

  This is about something I observed in my daily life frequently since I started understanding it and also started to feel the urge to practice it. I am talking about pseudo-intellectualism (don't know if there is some word like that or not). Somehow I cannot do it and probably that is the reason I started hating it from the early days when I started to realise there is a thing like this. There is a note however that I also met several people, who are actually creative and know their business. But my disgust is towards those who fake it. Fortunately, I do not have any friend who practices it. But in daily lives friends are not the only people whom you interact frequently. I feel humiliated when I see people bluff about their capability or mentality to someone whom I care. I always try to make the idea clearer to the people I care if I feel they are being bluffed. Though I realised much later that it really is not a very good idea to do it all the time, but that is another issue. I just want to express my anger which comes from the lack of capabilities to "lie." I could not find a better word for it.

  I also started feeling pity for the people when I see them, even after having full knowledge, go by others' bluffs. And what hurts more is when I see me not getting something because a pseudo has convinced the person concerned. Yes, I know it is a very good quality. I have seen my close ones, and even people whom I just know get carried away by pseudos, told me about it. I am not implying the value of intellect ceased to exist. It just cannot be. What I am trying to imply is that sometimes the one who gets the value does not deserve it. And, when you are the one that gets stepped upon by bluffers, you feel bad. But, with a pinch of pity though.


  I just want to say, I am sorry. For I don't have the quality to confuse people if I can't convince them. It feels so demoralising. I am sorry for I can't buy professional devices just to look like a one when I am not. I am sorry I can't lie to you about a poem and make minor change and claim that it is my own composition. I am sorry I cannot pretend to like some genre of music for it is way to attract people's attention. I am sorry I cannot tell you that I know everything about something. I am just a normal person who wants to get what he deserves. If the programme of lying is not installed properly in one's system, is it the reason enough to deprive them of being valued where it is due or deserved?